Rant
I told him from the begining that I wanted to continue being his friend. He is the one that told me that he needed time away. He is the one that said last spring he was ready to be my friend again, and then a few weeks later at a friend’s wedding had a different friend tell me he just couldn’t deal with it. And when I suggested to get together this summer to give him back some stuff of his, he said I should just give it to a mutual friend to give to him. I realize he’s still dealing with things. But if he really does want to reconcile, then he should try sending clearer signals. I figured he still wasn’t all that comfortable with me. The last two times we have been at group functions he has managed to say things that make me feel that maybe he’s not ready.
I just want things to be easy. But I guess they aren’t supposed to be. And I don’t know how I’m supposed to deal with this. I guess it’s up to me to approach him. But I don’t know what to say to him. I know things are better now than they where last year, or even this summer. But I’m scared that I’ll end up saying the wrong thing and all the progress that has been made will just crumble away. I don’t want that. I want us to be friends again. I’ve always wanted that. I just don’t know what to say that will fix this. . .